So, last time I posted I had just joined the Box Office crew and was wondering where my life was leading... Now I have a standing offer to be the NEW PROPERTIES MANAGER here at my beloved theatre. Our christmas show, and the last that I will design props for this season has opened and is doing beautifully. Oh... except I am now backstage crew for it as well!!! Which actually makes me happy. I LOVE running crew. I love a headset, I love watching a show from the wings, I love wearing black and performing ninja-like crew duties in the dark behind curtains so as to fully surprise the audience with a brand new set for a new scene. I admit, 13 years I've been doing this now and I still get all tingly with excitement when the overture starts. The cast is great for the most part... seeing as its Halloween but we're stuck in White Christmas land, there's been a few trips to haunted houses in recent days and plenty of costume parties this weekend. A good friend of mine recently said "You know when you’re sitting on a chair and you lean back so you’re just on two legs, then you lean too far and you almost fall over but at the last second you catch yourself? I feel like that all the time.” Its true for me too. I feel like ever since I fell out of my college nest and had to start trying to fly in the "real world" I feel this wild sense of danger and excitement: will I able able to pay all my bills this month? Will I even have a job next month? Will I get the job I so desparately want? I'm balancing dangerously on two feet instead of four and you know what? I need to stop worrying about silly things and enjoy the amazing life that is unfolding in front of me. Yes, I have a lot to worry about, a lot to learn still, and a lot of debt. But I also get to wake up every morning and do what I've always wanted to do in a theatre I've always wanted to work for and hang with some of the greatest people on planet Earth. I know I complain and get angry and paranoid but...
BOTTOM LINE: I have a great life. I have my health. I get to do what I've always wanted. nuff said.
Keep your chin up Kid. No matter how bad it seems, it does get better. you just have to wait...
love this.
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